Sunday, January 14, 2007 ♥
REgrets.
millions of things are going thru my mind now. Feeling disappointed, angry, sad, envious, frustrated, regretful... becoz i did nt strive hard enough. Someone once told me: nvr look back at the past, becoz it will make u miserable. I realise it's true to a certain extent. (in my case esp)
had wanted to try urops. but my fear of lab overcame me.
had wanted to go for eurip. applied but din get it. but later gt a mail tat there was 1 space available and i gave up on it because of my low self-esteem and poor cap that discourage me from applyin again
in my year 2 of labs, i recall a lab fren once had the same aspiration as me. she wanted to have better results and do urops and even go for hon even tho she could barely make. today she did it. and even went for eurip and is a happier person now. For me, i am still in the same spot, only with regrets weighing me down. Chances were there for me but i did nt fight harder to grab it.
I think interest and passion for life push her on. but for me, have i change? when did i become like this? tryin hard to be happy but sometimes i dun even know what i want for myself and just living day by day. Whatever happen to my dreams and determination? make so many vows but they do nt happen for me.
Life is tough. But we can make it easy if we wan. When can I find my own path?
